I just read designer Kate Spade, 55 was found dead in her NYC apartment from apparent suicide. As a person who has had an up-close experience with a loved one choosing to escape what is believed to be the unbearable, my thoughts and prayers are with her family and every family that has ever had to face this hardship. 

For many of us, it is disturbing to think that someone of great beauty and success failed to find–or buy whatever she wanted and needed.  We’ll ask ourselves, what was so difficult that she couldn’t come to terms with what seemed to be impossible, “She had it all.” 

But wait, before you go there you need to know this: No one has it all. What is “it all,” anyway? Perhaps, that’s the challenge we all face:  a yearning desire to find “it all” so we’ll happy forever.

This is the path to impossibility and discontentment. We all lessons that we have to learn and trials we have to go through. There’s no permanent place on earth that is happy ever after.

Prayer, mediation and practicing good will toward others is a good start on the path to happiness.  But on the journey, we all have to discover our place of contentment and peace that comes to those who are relentless in seeking it–even when it evades us.

I leave you with this poem that I wrote when our dear Christian passed. We have shared it with other families that have lost their loved ones to suicide and I share it with.

Be at peace.

Sometimes life gets lonely and filled with despair, but don’t fret; God is always there.

I made a choice  to take my flight, believing that it would lead me to the white light.

I know you will miss me, and I will miss you too, but we’re closer than you think; we are all connected through one link.

I loved you before I said good-bye, I love you still; don’t believe any other lie. Be strong, be wise, and be of good cheer; nothing has gone wrong, although it looks weird.

You taught me what I was to know. And I did the same for you on life’s stage show.

I send you my love, a hug, and a kiss; I have no more wishes because this day of freedom, peace and joy was on my list.

These are my last words to each of you: don’t mope, be depressed, or be blue. I told you from the beginning I’m alright; you taught me about God, angels and the white light.

I love you!

Poem Copyrights 2014 S. Renee Smith. Blog copyright 2018 S. Renee Smith, You can get my inspirational prayers on Amazon in my book, Our Hearts Wonder: Prayers to Heal Your Heart and Calm Your Soul.   Or via email at srenee@srenee.com.